wow. its been a real long while since i feel sucha bad ache in my heart. These few months have been happening alot of things. Unfortunately, it isnt good news at all. The biggest fear in my life is happening again- Losing people who are precious in my life. One by one. The same nightmare occurred to me twice in a month about losing the same one person who brought me into this world. and those two nights, i woke up crying badly.. The first time i told myself this:" aye, this got to be a joke. I must be thinking too much." Recently, the second time.. hmmm..~ i really dont know what to say. But this time wasnt as serious as the first which is a really good thing. The second nightmare is just wna me to leave that person to continue the rest of my life on my own with my other half. sigh. rawh! 
